What's More Important?

I was talking to my mom this morning, and she got to saying that if I dont have a job by time Justin leaves...she would like me just to come home.  As much as I dont want to, I would love to stay here...I am starting to think that would be best.

I applied at Dicks, and we will see if I get an interview this week.  Right now I am feeling that if Dicks doesnt work out, I am going to stop looking and face it...I will just go home.  As much as I want for us to get a house, I have to think that if this happens I probably wont get to spend pre deployment leave with him...time that I wont be able to get back for 7-10 months.  Whats more important?  I need this time, I need to spend it with him.

If Dicks doesnt work out, I will go home and find a job.  We will save up money while he is gone and look for a job and a house when he gets back.  I really want his help decorating, I want him to feel apart of that...so that will give us the chance for us both to be involved.  I am seeing the positive out of every situation...I sure have came a long way since my break down a few days ago haha.

Either way I do know, and have said before...everything happens for a reason.  At least if I move home I wont have to pay for anything, and I wont have to be a freaking maid for people who just sit on their butts.  Either way I will be out of the situation I am in now, and will eventually get my own house with Justin in time.  I just wish I could talk to him, I hate this.  I wish they would have got all the training done sooner and not backing up right to the deployment.

Gotta love living this Military Life lol.  Have a great weekend ladies <3
(oh and yay for me, im getting back into blogging lol)